I got my head full of boredom, uncertainty, sadness, doubts, worries, and everything else. and then I wrote a letter to a friend.
Please give me stronger shoulder. I am exhausted, hanging by a thread, almost fainted, honestly I can’t take them all at once.
From the day you were born, you were taken care by your parents completely. For once, you lived a life where you know nothing but a fortune. You wake up, you eat, you drink milk, you play toys, and you sleep and everything else like there is nothing to worry. And the days were you went to school, where you know nothing but to study. Your parents take care of your needs and your school fees, and your everything else. Almost anything. When you went to college 5 years ago, your mom accompanied you, stay there for a week. She checked the flat foods, your clothing, your schedules, and other things to keep you up to college days. She need to make sure you are and you will alright, and yet you are.
Not to mention the day you graduate, she, your father, and your brothers came. They ease their time to meet you. 3 months later you got a job, that somehow change the way you are, some to good, and some to bad. Yet, in your first day, she still accompanied you. She takes many wounds than you ever did, but she did not give up.
I heard you once said, that there are 2 important days in someone’s life, the day they were born, and the day they know why. And you said, you already knew why. THIS is is why you came for. This is not even a new thing for you, you have been through tons of miles of hell I could not even describe. You are the strongest person I once knew, hopefully still. This is just another battle, another field, another war, another series, the plot will always be the same, just different opponent.
You. Lived. to. Fight. As it you were, you are, and you will meant to be. Because guys like you, selfless, intelligent, ambitious, are the ones that we need at most. But also, guys like you, are the one who don’t get to live normal life.
So please, Wann, we need you to stay strong, ikhlas-lah dalam melakukan pekerjaan ini, we need you at your very best.
With love, from a friend,
My heart will always be with you